What if

I can't stop thinking about suicide. I think about it everyday. I'm getting so sick of the lies and insincerity coming from all around me. I ask myself why constantly. Why is it so obvious and is it really happening. Going insane sometimes seems the only option and if people don't start living more freely and being better than I feel that all of this is going to start weighing on my conscious more and more until I break one day. No one more than I wish to see this happen and I feel that I have to lie to myself to make it all better. People can't be this careless and heartless. Maybe I'm the one with the problem. When I go to work in the morning I think this sux and then I wonder holy freaking crap some people do this everyday. I would want to cease to exist if that was my lot in life. How the heck do they do it? If it's not that they wake up and think I can't wait to see what today has I'm store than I don't want to wake up. I wake up and the only reason to get of of bed is fear than I won't live up to my commitments and responsibilities. I hate it hate hate freakn hate it. It's getting so hard I hate my life I hate the out look of what I have to live for. I'm so ready to give it up cause I can't see a way out of all the excuses circulating for what there is to live for. I don't care enough to keep the pain I feel inside any longer. I can feel the wrong I can feel the wrong I can feel lies and the end is coming closer and closer everyday.

Bestiary Art

Ahh the monkey poo sculptures... As soft on the eyes as they are on the nostrils.

It's all in the love of the step

Most of us try to accomplish things in the fewest steps possible when what we should be doing is breaking them down into as many small and easy ones as we can.

better or myspace

i haven't progressed at all is what i just noticed

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marijuana

now that i have your attention
i have some important announcements to make
will the owner of the blue station wagon
please come to the front
blue station wagon
license plate S0DMNH1
i repeat
blue station wagon
that is all

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Demasiado Grande

People won't like you if your cock gets too big.

To Others

We are not remembered for the gifts we give but who we are without them.

Simon Rodia's Watts Towers

Being stirred by a compelling desire
That would not be denied,
Simon Rodia listened to his heart,
From where came a whisper;

"The dream is dreamed.
Come, fly with me.
The dream is dreamed,
high in the sky with me.
The dream is dreamed,
yours to implement or impede.
The dream is dreamed.
Embrace the wind indeed."

Without sketch or blueprint,
Without the architect's expert okay,
Giving rise to inspiration,
Rodia began his acclaimed work, doing it his way.

Without the security of scaffolding,
Without tools fashioned for task,
With materials cast off by others,
Working thirty-plus years…toil, birthing bask.

Built of broken glass, bits and pieces of tile and pottery,
Ceramic, rocks, seashells, wire mesh, steel and concrete,
The Watts Towers are mosaic monuments symbolizing the possibility,
Humble, yet grand structures, signaling the improbable victory to greet.

Like a lotus blossoming, the history of the Watts Towers unfolds,
With many seeking a myriad of details to comprehend,
But others touched by Rodia's innate artistry become manifest,
Upon hearing a whisper, are themselves inspired, to embrace the wind.

©2003 Syni Patterson

Dr. John V. Milewski - Presents, The Wonderful World of Advanced Materials.

Dr. John V. Milewski - Presents, The Wonderful World of Advanced Materials.: "WHAT IS SUPERLIGHT ?
SuperLight is magnetic light; it is magneto–electric radiation.

Regular light is electric light or electro–magnetic radiation. There is parity or symmetry the Universe, everything has an equal and opposite mirror–image counterpart, the Ying and the Yang, right and left, matter and anti matter, the electron and the positron. Why not light?

Both science and metaphysics have honored this parity law in all things except light. They are wrong. There is parity in light as well !

I will now explain and give you more detail.

SuperLight is the unseen force in nature that has been ignored by science but real to the mystics and metaphysicians for thousands of years. It has been given different names by different cultures for thousands of years.

A Nuous, Chi, Biomagnetic Energy, Wilhelm Reich's Orgone Energy, Tesler's Free Earth Energy, Animal Magnetism, Space Energy, Vacuum Energy, and Zero Point Energy, etc. Those who have subtle perception know it is real.

SuperLight was identified scientifically over 100 years ago when James Clerk Maxwell solved his famous wave equation. This occurred shortly after radio was invented by Nikola Tesla, and theoretical physicists tried to find a mathematical model to explain radio waves. When using positive numbers in Maxwel"

Time

Time is like a sandy shore, an ever-changing silicon tapestry. Though sturdy under foot, eventually, would slip beneath the waves. Accepted for what it is, a sea of possibility, infinite grains of what life has to give inspiring creation on every beach. Movement is the key, thought and of deed, which no current can ever sink.

I AM Sealed in a Sphere of Light

Translations
Spanish

Give the following affirmation/decree to seal yourself and your personal energy field from any imperfect energies in your surroundings. It is recommended to give this affirmation one to three times in the morning and before giving other affirmations/decrees.

Before giving this affirmation, take a few seconds to center in your heart and focus on your Christ self. Visualize that your Christ self is givng the affirmation through you and that the power of the Holy Spirit flows through the words.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I accept the flaming presence of my Christ self and I AM Presence all around me, as a perfect sphere of Christ Light, Christ Power, Christ Truth and Christ Love. I accept that I am sealed from all energies less than Christ perfection.

I surrender all that is less than Christ perfection in my consciousness, and when the prince of this world comes, he has nothing in me. Therefore, the forces of this world have no power to separate me from my Christ self, my I AM Presence and my God.

I surrender all sense of separation from God and the sense of being the doer. I accept that my I AM Presence is the true doer in my life, and that my Presence works hitherto and I work.
I accept an invincible surge of the Violet Flame of Freedom to fill me and to consume all imperfections in my consciousness, being and world.

I accept that I am purified and made whole by the power of the Holy Spirit, and therefore I am spiritually reborn this day. I accept the alchemical union of my soul and my Christ self, now and forever.

By the power of my Christ self, I am set free to see that everything is God. I accept that I am free to be all I am in God, and therefore I affirm that I am here below all that I am Above. I hereby go forth radiating the Love and Truth of Christ to all whom I meet, and I hold the immaculate concept for myself, for all life and for planet Earth,
I am the Lord's and the fullness thereof.
All people are the Lord's and the fullness thereof.
The Earth is the Lord's and the fullness thereof.
It is done this hour by the full power of the Living Christ within me. Therefore, it is finished. Amen.

In Light, Love and Victory
Salem Arnaout

Invoking Spiritual Protection

The following affirmations will allow you to invoke spiritual protection from Archangel Michael. To reap the full effect of these affirmations, you must give them aloud, and you must give them with power and authority. Why must you speak the affirmations? Because when God created the world, God said: "Let there be light." In other words, God used the power of the spoken word to create the world.

A thought holds power, but the spoken word releases that power in the material world. To make maximum spiritual progress, you must learn to use the power of the spoken word. It is your birthright.

To give these affirmations, you must start by making an invocation. I suggest the following:

In the name of the I AM THAT I AM, in the name of Jesus Christ, I call to the heart of Archangel Michael to protect me from all imperfect energies, all forces of evil, all forces of anti-Christ and all forces of anti-peace.

(Here you can make a personal request to archangel Michael to protect you from specific dangers that you perceive.)

After you make the invocation, repeat one or all of the following affirmations 3, 9, 33 or 144 times each.

I accept the electronic presence of Archangel Michael around me, and I fully accept that I am sealed from all imperfect energies.

I consciously accept and know that with God all things are possible.
Therefore, I accept that Archangel Michael seals me from all imperfect energies.

I accept and affirm that Archangel Michael cuts me free from all imperfect energies, all forces of evil, all forces of anti-Christ and all forces of anti-peace.

In the name Jesus Christ, I for call forth the full flaming presence of Archangel Michael to consume all imperfect energies, all forces of evil, all forces of anti-Christ and all forces are anti-peace that are attacking my soul. I accept this protection, and I know that I am sealed from all that is less than Christ perfection.

I fully accept that Archangel Michaels seals me from all imperfect energies and evil spirits.

To further seal you from the energies of this world, I offer you a special gift from my heart. I am willing to place the Seal of the Lord upon you and thereby seal you as one of my own. However, the law requires that you affirm this by your free will. Therefore, I request that you repeat the following affirmation on a daily basis:

In the name of Jesus Christ,
I accept that the Seal of the Lord is upon me now.
I accept that the Seal of the Lord is upon me now.
I accept that the Seal of the Lord is upon me now.

After you complete a set of affirmations, I request that you seal the energies by the following statement:

In the name of Jesus Christ, I accept it done this hour in full power.
Nevertheless Father, not my will, but thine be done. Amen.

To gain the full effect of these affirmations, you must repeat them daily. I am not going to tell you how much time you should spend on this, because this truly is an individual matter. I know that many of you feel burdened by negative energy. In fact, everyone should be able to quickly develop a sensitivity that will allow them to feel when they are being attacked by imperfect energies.

Whenever you feel such an attack, repeat the affirmations until you feel that the negative energies are no longer affecting you. If you know that you have been attacked by negative energies over a long period of time, then make a very determined effort to use these affirmations to seal yourself from such negative energies. This might require a great effort for a period of time until you feel that you have broken through to a new level of consciousness. You need to be sensitive to your individual situation, and you can use the exercise for atunement to attain this sensitivity.

In Light, Love and Eternal Gratitude,
Salem Arnaout

Mission Statement

I chose the title "Transcendental Piracy" because at the moment one of the biggest quests in my life is to figure out who I really am and what the crap is going on out there. I find myself reading and meditating, meditating with others and talking, searching, perusing, playing, confusing, and all in the name of discovering what all this is about and just to find out that often I am trying too hard and that the more I let go, the more it lets me know. What an oxymoron! The more you you try to understand it, the more it will elude you. I feel that I get closer and closer to understanding life but everytime I begin to glipse what could be my ego starts to run rampid within and I feel as if I am now farther away then when I started. I keep feeling like a pirate, out there partaking and listening and conveying self awareness when I myself am not self aware. Maybe what I need to do is not care at all and just read for the sake of reading, meditate for the sake of meditating, and quit looking for anything. Maybe in that space of zero expectations I will find what it is that I'm not looking for ;-)