Sunday, March 06, 2011
a half slammed door
im going crazy but hopefully those i know are too and i dont say that because i wish them harm but i hope that im not as lonely as i feel so f*ck all of you and i hope you all go to h*ll cause thats where im going for sure and maybe if im lucky our friendship will be a little more extraordinary that it currently is which is more than i can say for everything im currently surround by for example ignorance bliss and twisted egos inflated beyond limits that were never set low enough for anyone human to exist sanely within and still feel loved and adored as an individual that breathes and wants contact by anyone willing to listen without judgement or hesitation to ask questions and create problems by needing to have themselves validated and what the h*ll does that mean anyway you defy bastard is it just an excuse to be a jerk wad or do you really mean you just need friends and family to say what they really feel cause thats just silly talk and i wont have any of it in the tiny boundry filled fear field i live in buster and thats all i have to say about that.
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Jamin, most people are afraid and most people are unable to handle that fear, which is why they erect walls of "twisted egos". If you can view people as frightened "well wishers" you can see their hearts behind all the subterfuge. Even when someone is driven, by their fear, to be vicious, it is the fear talking/acting, not the core person. They are blinded and deceived by their fear and it is this lack of vision and this twisted perception that guides their actions. It's not their heart. It's a sad state of humanity that has good people behaving so badly. And the only remedy is to see past their erroneous actions and respond with love. Respond with compassion. Difficult, you say? Of course it is. That's why so few do it. It's difficult because, the common way of being is from fear. I know this because I saw it (and see it) within myself. I use my own reaction to life as a template, knowing that I'm no different than anyone else. When I succeed at responding with love is when I catch myself and choose different than what my flesh wants (for it's the flesh that drives fear). Also, after practicing this way of being for a while, a new possibility may open: the possibility of ACTUALLY being able to see their heart.
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