a half slammed door

im going crazy but hopefully those i know are too and i dont say that because i wish them harm but i hope that im not as lonely as i feel so f*ck all of you and i hope you all go to h*ll cause thats where im going for sure and maybe if im lucky our friendship will be a little more extraordinary that it currently is which is more than i can say for everything im currently surround by for example ignorance bliss and twisted egos inflated beyond limits that were never set low enough for anyone human to exist sanely within and still feel loved and adored as an individual that breathes and wants contact by anyone willing to listen without judgement or hesitation to ask questions and create problems by needing to have themselves validated and what the h*ll does that mean anyway you defy bastard is it just an excuse to be a jerk wad or do you really mean you just need friends and family to say what they really feel cause thats just silly talk and i wont have any of it in the tiny boundry filled fear field i live in buster and thats all i have to say about that.